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Breathing Poisoned Air

from As Death Consumes the Earth by CemeteriuM

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Words cannot describe the heartbreak, the anger, the enormous void left inside of me and the utter despair upon waking. What went wrong? Why can't I leave this place? Why couldn't I find a way to change her decision? I couldn't conceive a reality worse than the one I was in, and somehow it happened. The only thing I had left is gone. She insisted in going first, swallowing her half of the pills in front of me so that I would not back out. Perhaps if I had been first she would have hesitated. Would it be any better? I don't wish this feeling upon anyone, yet alone her. I'm starting to lose touch with reality. Perhaps I'm already dead and this is hell. In a way that is the most comforting thing I can think of. At least that means that I didn't fail. Whatever small amount of control I felt is now gone. I am like a withering leaf, falling from its branch, at the mercy of the cold air pushing me aside to then desert me upon hitting the bottom. There I lie with no energy left in me among the corpses; all of us awaiting the winter.

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Breathing Poisoned Air

I considered myself the unlucky one
Here I still am while she is forever gone
Perhaps my death is worse and my prize is misery
A chance to linger as an outcast left in a dying world

Walk ever further but no hope is ever found
My body agonizes as my mind crumbles
Will this end? Or is it still my task to do so?

Is it any different from before?
People struggling to survive, finding a means to exist. The futility of it all
Seems comical now, if even a sliver Can exist in this
The greatest of all tragedies

It changes you as soon as you realize it. Breathing the poisoned air of this world
Withering away from the inside, gradually, sinking further into oblivion

My charade continues on.
Forget logic, forget the truth. Cower from it, and hide behind your lies.
It makes no difference now, of all times.
Death is not just, it didn't choose her.

This barren horizon around me tells me so;
As my inexistent soul, My hollow body moves on.
Down the road, around the next corner, further into oblivion, As always
Nothing changed. I just opened my eyes for the first time

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from As Death Consumes the Earth, released June 13, 2014
All composition, lyrics, recording, and production by Belegurth.

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CemeteriuM Puerto Vallarta, Mexico

CemeteriuM has been producing depressive and immensely dark music since 2004. Hailing from Puerto Vallarta, Mexico. They have changed musicians a lot over the years, but founding member Belegurth has continued on; undeterred.

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